Sooo...this photo was taken at sunrise in early October 2018 just off the coast of northern France (somewhere between Cherbourg and Douarnenez). Last year I spent a week onboard @frigate_shtandart and never posted about it. Here's why:
First seasickness happened (again 😒) and I ended up lying around on deck uselessly, fell asleep at some point and spent most of the first night outside. Nobody told me I shouldn't and I still don't know if it was the right thing to do. In hindsight I would do it again. Being dizzy and cold was awful, but looking at the stars and listening to quiet talking was calming. (I didn't care what was being said. I just liked the sound of the Russian language.)
In the following days (and nights) I learned that even after my seasickness had subsided I was not really helpful. I was too much of a wuss to climb the rigging, constantly got confused about where to find which line or what they were even called (I can safely locate the foremast braces, but that's about it. 😅) and was usually too shy to ask what was going on whenever things were discussed in Russian and/or happened very quickly.
All of this and a bunch of sh** going on in my personal life led to me being utterly relieved when I finally got off the ship in Brest. I had booked an appartement there for a couple of days and when I got there I first took a gloriously hot shower and then slept for twelve hours straight. 😅
And then an interesting train of thought came about: I was happy. Despite all the negativity and faultiness I saw in my own behaviour and abilities I had made fond memories of the ship and the people I had spent the past week with. A cup of hot tea in the middle of the night, watching fluorescent plankton and dolphins or having a place to go back to that felt so safe and homely in an unfamiliar country hadn't seemed special to me at the time. But it was. It was so fu***** special and needed in my life at that point. And I still feel like I never properly said thank you for that...
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